Oh man
— I feel like I’m losing it again. This isn’t good. I need something good to happen soon.
Today
I picked up a customer with one hand and smacked him with the other. I would explain why I did this but I turned on my xbox and Blackops 2 seems much more fun than explaining why I did that.
Thanksgiving.
This is such a terrible thanksgiving. I look forward to Thanksgiving more than I look forward to Christmas. My mom and aunt decided to cancel cooking or hanging out. So on a day where I’m always around my family; I’m not. I’ve been looking forward to this since last years Thanksgiving. Im so pissed off. Also, since it’s Thanksgiving; there’s no place where I can order food. So i’m also not eating today. Well, at least my mom is getting some rest. Happy Thanksgiving everybody.~
Did you not know?
Part of me died long ago,
So don’t expect me to shed some tears,
When my feelings have long disappeared.
I’m sorry if this makes me sound heartless,
I’m sorry if you thought I cared,
But I’ve already welcome darkness,
And now there’s only room left for despair.
— hippidyhip
I don’t want to go to work today. I feel like its going to be such a long day because when I’m out I’m going to buy a MacBook Pro. Besides, Mondays are when there’s a lot of shipment. I want to be lazy for today.
._.
As weird as this’ll sound, I want to get into a fist fight. I want someone to push my buttons enough to actually make me swing first. It’s been such a long time that I haven’t gotten into a fight, I miss the adrenaline and the numbness you get. I miss feeling scared thinking that there’s a possibility of me losing, or that if I hit him hard enough I could really end up hurting him, or even worse. I miss taking a shot and making them realize it’s futile to continue on fighting, or that dazed feeling you get after getting hit right on that spot that if you were weaker, he would’ve toppled you over. I especially miss realizing how powerful you feel when you inflict pain on both you and the person you punched because of how much power you put into that punch. And most of all, I miss feeling like a winner and having battle scars to prove your manliness.
I feel like shit
I hate saying this, but I feel so helpless. And as much as I want to vent on this, I just can’t. Fuck this.
I need a new start in life.
What I would do for another chance to start all over. So many things would change. I’ll fix everything.
